I saw the cutest little boy today in Wal-Mart. Dark hair, long eyelashes....I'm going to have one of those. It's crazy to think how much our little world is about to change. I have already admitted that I'm not the biggest baby person in the world and of course I constantly have my doubts as to how I will react to the whole thing at first, but overall I know that with some time (and maybe in no time at all) it will be great and wonderful and everything I have ever dreamed it will be.
I look forward to getting to know this new little person and figuring out everything about him. I'm blessed to at least initially be able to stay at home with him and have that time to bond with him. I know it won't be all rainbows and sunshine. In fact, I'm sure there will be days I'm going to want to pull my hair out and need a break. I'm going to be unsure of myself at first and make mistakes, but once I figure it out, I know it will all be okay.
Some days I cry because I'm not quite sure we are as prepared as we should be and that we might not be able to give him everything he deserves, but then I realize that it's going to be alright. All kids really need is someone to love and care for them and that is something that I'm sure we can do.
I'm looking forward to the changes this new addition will make to me and Michael's relationship as well. I can already tell that we have become even closer through this pregnancy and I know we will make a great team when it comes to parenting. Of course, there will be some kinks to work out, but I think those are something that makes a marriage even stronger.
Okay, I think I'm finally there. I'm finally ready and able to fully picture this little guy in our lives. I know I'm slow about these things, but that's just me.
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