This week has been filled with questions, doubts, and excitement. I actually bought my first pregnancy test EVER and I have to admit for some strange reason it made me feel nervous. I had to remind myself that I was a married woman of an appropriate age and that there should be no reason I should feel ashamed to buying these things.
I had started at Krogers where I found they kept the tests locked up in a cabinet and I would actually have to ask someone for help. I also noticed they were quite pricey! I decided to go to the dollar store instead and bought a couple of them just to make sure they were accurate.
On the very snowy day of January 30th we finally were able to have a moment alone and took two pregnancy tests that turned out to be positive!
I have to admit that I was more nervous than excited. I went ahead and scheduled my first prenatal appointment where I got to tell the first person besides my husband that I was pregnant. It came out so odd sounding and forced. It definitely hasn't sunk it.
We have decided to wait to tell people until we are past the first trimester (just in case the worst happens). It is going to be so hard though and I really think I could use the support of some people who have been through it before. I guess we will just wait and see how it goes.
I started to realize there is SOOOOOOO much that I don't know about this whole process. I did order a few books (What's to Expect when Your Expecting, Dr. Spock, and Babywise). Hopefully they will give me the answers I'm needing. This week I've found out how many potiential mistakes I've already made. I also wasn't taking prenatal vitamins until this week. I really should have been taking them since November. Agh! Hopefully I haven't already screwed things up beyond repair. These books can't come fast enough!
We are starting to wonder how we are going to avoid letting people know. We have a Superbowl party to attend and I'm pretty sure it won't go totally unnoticed that I'm not drinking. My sister and her boyfriend are coming up and with my luck she will just outright ask me in front of my dad. Eeeks this is going to be difficult. Especially if I start having morning sickness.....dad might notice. Living with parents and hiding this is not going to be easy.
Speaking of which, the house search has been kicked into overdrive as well as money worries. I know I should just relax and have faith that everything is going to work out as it should, but I'm definitely freaking out a bit. I'm not good with the unknown!
As far as body changes this week, it's been mild. The ladies were hurting the first part of the week, but that's subsided. My back on the other hand has been killing me. I'm sure that sounds odd, but in fact, I have a so called "tilted" uterus. Another thing I have many questions about...will it turn around on it's own?, could it make me have a c-section?....something to save for this Friday's OB appointment. I also went to the dermatologist for my increasing acne. I had scheduled the appointment before I found out I was preggo and really there was nothing they could do. All they did was set me up with a $70 tiny bottle of organic spot treatment. Yippee. I felt very guilty for actually getting it, but my face is like a 15 year olds at this point and I can't take that for another 8 months!
That about sums it up for week 5. And here for the first time ever....a belly pic. There's really no change and I'm pretty sure the bump that you can see is from the boatload of guacamole I ate before taking this picture!