I've been struggling lately.
January is a time of renewal for me. It's a time I strive to change my life in positive ways. I set high goals for myself and can't wait to dive in.
Unfortunately I'm easily frustrated and stress when I can't do those things I've set out for myself. I've had a perfect vision of how my life should be in my head and when I don't live that out everyday...I feel like a failure.
It's just another adjustment that the path of motherhood is taking me on. Last year I could reorganize my WHOLE house in a week or two. I'd try a new recipe every night. I'd read before bed and maybe finish a book or two a month. Now it takes me a week to reorganize one closet if I'm lucky, cooking...psh please, and reading consists of baby books and maybe a page or two of a fun read.
Goals that use to be realistic just aren't anymore. I need to have patience with myself. I know I will get back to that old self one day, but today I've got lots of challenges on my plate. I think I just need to strive to find balance. It's going to take time to figure out how my old life fits into my new one.
And sometimes I just need to take a deep breath and enjoy the chaos.
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